MeTilds

kunde inte somna igar kvall, det var som om adrenalinet bara fortsatte att pumpa. allt kandes sa perfekt, kande mig sa lycklig, sa lyckad, tankarna bara svammade!! tog mig sakert minst en timme att somna efter att jag slackt lampan.
jag ALSKAR att slosa pengar, eller inte slosa, gora av med, blir som varsta kicken! alskar det! shoppade sjukt snygga grejer for kanonpris! senare pa kvallen var jag ute och sprang, dubbelt upp! inte undra pa att jag inte kunde somna, allt kandes sa javla bast!
det basta av allt, att tjana pengar har som jag sedan spenderar, det ar som att ingenting hander i ekonomin liksom, love!

you wouldnt even care, would ya?

I wanna kill, you

i dont think you know what you are doing, you dont realize that you can fuck up everything.
you know i wont stay forever, so dont act like i would.
we are friends, we were friends, will we be friends?
I dont know if i can belive you, if i want to. i probebly want to belive you but then you might hurt me. harder than if i dont.
you can be a big fucking liar, or you can be a sweetheart, but what if you are a big fucking liar.. oh i dont know anymore, this is driving me crazy, why are you doing this to me? its like i not even there, fuck you!

storande. inte irriterande aven fast det ar det jag vill saga. men det gor mig latt irriterad. far mig att tycka illa om dig. blir ond. you can easely turn me in to a evil person. what to do? misstanksam. tankspridd. osaker. vill forstora och doda. vill radera ut minnet. want to make you understand, imposseble! want to make you feel the same, horrible person, me. but i dont know what to do, I'm climbing on the walls. want to hit you. fuck you